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Moment of Choice

It has been a while. 

Life has been colourful - to put it mildly. 

I seem to be out the other side with a clarity about what truly matters to me.  Hence renaming this blog, In This Moment. We are right here in it, after all. And hello to you as you choose to spend this moment of yours reading my words.

Hello! Take a breath and settle in, if you choose to stay. It’s your moment of choice.

It has taken a humbling tussle with cancer to open my eyes to the moment I am in. Moments which can be a few seconds; a fleeting interaction, a happy thought. Or periods of time delineated by some external structure; a work day, a treatment schedule or a plane trip. And then moments as life stages; mothering a newborn, high school education, a career, even dying well as you acknowledge your last days. All these hold a context for the minuscule moment which is accompanied by my next breath in and subsequent release. 

How am I going to spend this moment that I am present to? How shall I live well?

My understanding was made very concrete that there is no single, right answer to this wonderful ride called life! I am now more present to it all being about perspective and choice. My perspective on what is important changed dramatically. As a result, how I live has changed. The way I make choices is clearer and more compassionate and I watch as each choice inescapably accumulates to a life lived. 

This clarity has brought a change to how I choose to spend my time. And time, oh my! Time continually morphed for me depending on what news I had, which chemo day I was on, when surgery loomed or healing ‘took too long’. Looking back that ordeal was timeless, a black hole, though I can see on the calendar that it is over a year since treatment began. So now, as I said, I see time as an opportunity for context and presence. From the big scheme of things, to this next breath. I enjoy it being less linear in my perception and more multi-faceted, multi-layered and, as they say, multi-dimensional.

So I intend to spend time sharing some of my hard-won perspectives. My desire in this, as with everything I share, is for connection. Connection into my own thoughts and interactions, offering connection in and with you and your own ideas. This is truly what makes my life rich. I hope it might enrich yours too, In This Moment. 


And in more to come.

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